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i'm having a really big celebration
a formal get together everyone is invited
i'll be speking at this event
giving everyone a dose of my reality
making you feel sorry for me
a big ol pity party just for me
letting everyone know why life isnt going right for me
dishing out every excuse for why i havent succeed
but hopefully you wont see it like that
youll be on my side
hoping i'll one day get my big break
thinking how did i manage to survive ths long with the odds stacked against me
some people will sense my stinch and attempt to disagree
i have a number of sad stories that'll pull at their heartstrings
if i put as much thought into building something stable i'll probably be somewhere else
instead of standing still with my arms streched out waiting for all of my neccessaties and dreams will fall from the sky achieved
allowing me to reap the benefits with no blood sweat or tears shed
im living in a fantasy
nothing in this world is free
especially when you havent worked for it
somewhere someone is paying for it
i end up paying the most expensive price that can never be repaid and thats with time
time i've wasted looking for a easy way out
a hand out
more than a helping hand
im cutting everyone off
i have to do this for myself
proving to myself i am more than i believe myself to be
more valuable than i portray
a diamond in the rough who still needs some refining
this journey that im on will reveal the strength in me to truly know what it means to succeed
