look back

Im noticing a msissin piece 

Living with me 

Didnt quite see so i had to look at my past history 

You wasnt to blame my behaviors alone took shame 

Am i really that bad  as i make myself seem 

Today i looked back motivation used to be the key 

Living faithfull to me 

Children came to play daily living is to blame 

No longer feeling the same, trying to get back to that place 

Dam am i really that fake smiling at you what would i do if the shoe was reversed 

Living with this curse im subdued to my desires 

I complain of whats not fair  playing truth or dare with no truth so i dare

Myself to be more of a women to be true 

Looking back i had that virtue once long ago 

When truth was mine when i belonged to self 

Clear i no longer see indecisiveness holds that master key 

Looking back the devil didnt exist now hes dancing on my doorstep in bliss 

My god, how did it get to this