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I laid on the bed as if I was ready,
he skipped foreplay and eased it in real steady,
before i could take all of his inches I had to ask myself two questions,
Should I be doing this...I shouldnt,
Will it ease my pain....it wouldnt,
When i tried to push him off of me...I couldnt,
When i got up he started to choke me,
he squeezed so tight I stopped breathing,
I stopped breathing for so long i started shaking,
I shook so much i felt as if i was seizing,
Finally giving up the fight against the man i asked God to forgive me,
I prayed that he would protect my family,
I begged him to guide my sisters so they dont meet the same destiny,
As i finished my prayer the guy said thanks for the sex and i loved the chase,
So when i tell my story do not look at me any differently,
I am still human...i am still me,
Dont think of me as damaged but think of me as a women instead,
because when i woke up this morning i didnt the words "rape victim" written across my forehead.
