My Rape Story

I laid on the bed as if I was ready,

he skipped foreplay and eased it in real steady,

before i could take all of his inches I had to ask myself two questions,

Should I be doing this...I shouldnt,

Will it ease my pain....it wouldnt,

When i tried to push him off of me...I couldnt,

When i got up he started to choke me,

he squeezed so tight I stopped breathing,

I stopped breathing for so long i started shaking,

I shook so much i felt as if i was seizing,

Finally giving up the fight against the man i asked God to forgive me,

I prayed that he would protect my family,

I begged him to guide my sisters so they dont meet the same destiny,

As i finished my prayer the guy said thanks for the sex and i loved the chase,

So when i tell my story do not look at me any differently,

I am still human...i am still me,

Dont think of me as damaged but think of me as a women instead,

because when i woke up this morning i didnt the words "rape victim" written across my forehead.