Why I Can't

I’m afraid to reach the top, from the fear of looking down
At all those I left behind, not the distance to the ground
I dare be all that I can be, and be hated for who I am
Express my talents genuine and true, yet viewed as a sham
I care not to look to the future, still judged from my past
Right is what I presently do, but my wrong is what will last
I choose not the big dreams, should they fade when I awake
Only to have a small nightmare, and remember how to escape
I aspire not to have great success, have it followed by much wealth
With no time to enjoy my work, I profit nothing with no health
I will not attempt to change the minds, of those who do not know
Who I am and where I am from, Nor where I am destined to go
I prefer not to make the grade, when wisdom plus knowledge equal smart
It is not that I can’t because I can, only a matter of will I start
I could never tell the secret, as to why I do what I don’t
I gave a clue as to why I can’t, now figure out why I won’t