sobering moment

i wear my heart on my sleeve and i have a tendency to get hurt in the end

being in the care of ones who do not give a fu(k

i have to stop making myself available

have him seek me out

with the guidance of the man upstairs

retreat

focus on me

instead of trying to be in love with someone

i've struggled with this dilemma for a long time

picking people who arent ready for anything

besides a one night stand

i've had my share of those and i'm looking for more

i guess im mature beyond my years

or

im not as prepared as i like to think

i'll figure it out

one way or another