Paper Clips

I’ve been waiting too long for so long It’s hard to scare me Goodbye is not in my vocabulary I’m afraid of goodbyes Goodbyes always catch me by surprise stuck in limbo in a place where I don’t want to remember where the sky is just a big hole in the ceiling much like the hole inside me I’m feeling trying to forget all of the faces changing furniture around in different places my memory can be cruel to me sometimes If I see it outside of my window I get up walk over and close the blinds I tell myself in the mirror “No More Attachments” shredding documents that meant so much to me putting them in the trash bin of my memory no longer do I have the need to read voices that spoke to me in the past tense it’s just too much evidence of my greatest fear holding my head down I see my tears on the ground nothing stays the same there’s always a link missing from my chain I’m just not that strong