if you only knew

Here i am all alone thinking about your presence

And all the late night talks on the telephone

Intimate moments, conversation

I have put myself in a sad situation

But i've come to this conclusion

After countless hours of thoughtful deliberation

I am hopelessly in love with you

It makes no sense to attempt further evasion

of that simple truth

 

If you only knew

When i look to the beginning

I felt a supernatural influence

suddenly

suspending my mind

Instantaneously capturing my full attention

wiping out even the least desire

To try to attempt a foolish lines

 

in speaking to you

Not to mention

I was touched by a calming spirit

Before, being almost overcome

by an almost overwhelming sense of

Of the power of your elemental sexuality

And i was scared, so afraid that you might find

That i had all but abandoned the search for that "keeper",

also, a believer of love in life...

Moments like this were never deeper

If you only knew

But the feeling left no doubt it surrounded me with a demand

That i must choose, before...i could even get a glimpse

Of your true spirituality

Too late, then, i found out you'd captured my very heart

From the very start

I could not even know the reason but i felt, already that i knew

We were inseperable and you were, part of me

If you only knew

I, still, cry out for you many sleepless nights

And i don't know what else that i can do...

If you only knew...

My heart cries out in song

As my emotions dance in rhythms, dreams of oceans

Mountains, rivers...sunrises, over distant valleys

It's bringing me to tears, so consistently

I am cast myself into a sea of sadness from which i can't seem to swim free

Almost unbearable for me to endure

If you only knew

This equation i cannot seem to solve

To simplify it only seems to equate in a broken heart for one of us

…or two…

And that i cannot ever seem to do

It makes me want to suspend time and start it all over

To just break all of the rules of heaven and hell

Just to get to you

I feel that whenever you need me

I've must be there for you

If you only knew

Rolled up in my mind where, as a scientist

I am not pretending

With the world in mortal danger one big experiment gone wrong

Has set it spiraling in a deadly spin

Working, spontaneously you are there with me

Working, without rest

Searching for the answer, this is not a test

How i handle this is beyond anything my simple understanding, can comprehend

Still, i coexist

 

But, if you only knew

You have my heart with you, even now

There's nothing more that i can do

…if you only knew…

I love you more than myself, right now, and there's nothing more that i can do

I will give my all, but i need you too

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