Just my thoughts

honestly I dream a lot but I never get to sleep, learned to let go of the pain but the scars I had to keep, I take a hit of strong reefer just to keep me on my feet, wash it down with dark liquor when I start to feel weak, self medicated I find myself meditating, about all the bad decisions that I made last week, for four long years she been chained to her grief, I'll make myself a prisoner if that would set her free, cause we all been hurt by those that we trust,  gotta decide if it's love or lust before we self destruct, it's hard cause I fall in love every time we touch, but my attitude like I don't really give a fck, don't blame me still bleeding from my past, I'm happy sometimes but it really don't last, it's a concept that u probably couldn't grasp, but I made through a lot things you probably wouldn't have