missing my twin

here i lay, staring up at the ceiling, hand behind my head, other hand on my stomach. flashing different events in my head

projecting them at the ceiling, ignoring my name being called by my mother. had got up put my sneakers on, put my hoodie on grabbed my keys and left on out the house.

leaving behind my cell phone wasnt in the mood for any calls.

walking the streets of the city, everything everyone passing me in slow motion. hands in my pockets hood up, not caring that its raining cats and dogs.

i kept walking as i heard my mother yelling for me from her truck.

was in a trance like i was being summoned. felt like i was walking for miles and miles.

then there i stood in the wet grass in front of my cousin's grave. staring at his picture, tears coming down my face.

lighting strikes near by, there i stood yelling at the top of my lungs, anger pain inside my voice.

dropped to my knees, just letting myself get soaking wet. crying the tears that finally came.

arms wrapped around me, lean back as my mother held me. soothing me, wondering when her daughter was finally gonna break down on the lost of her nephew.

missing my twin, my cousin, the one i called my brother more than my cousin. missing you every day,

forever gonna miss you, forever gonna be in my heart.