i need my mom back

Long days vanished
Without your presence
I find  myself  thinking of you
sometimes the tears flow freely
I find myself screaming
Trying to undo this knot in my throat
So I tell myself things are ok
Everytime I think my feelings are in intact the deep impact just strikes backs
Resurfaces from the depths
From all my emotions from losing you,
I just pretend your in the other room
But pretending is nothing like having the real you
Days go by, without you this  the  sacrifices I  have to pay.
Everyday  I strived to pretend my life will go back being the same
I never imagined losing you so soon
I never imagined it would hurt this much
Though my heart aches,
 Though my soul grieves
I wonder does she know
How much I need her back with me