Ramblings l. Anxiety

There was a time
 I was able to perform
 In front of thousands
 No pressure
 No anxiety
 No fear
 I found peace
 Beneath bright lights
 And hostile fans
 Today
 Crowds resemble mobs
 Sea of people flood the nerves
 Tidal waves destroying fragile shores
 I can’t breathe
 Or swim
 Nightmares begin
 Fear replaces confidence
 Panic surges my veins
 I’ve changed
 Disability cripples me
 Remind myself breathe
 In.. out..
 Slow.. your.. heart.. down..
 Focus on our plan
 Ignore the walls closing in