To: Whoever This is For

To: Whoever this is for…

It’s not a fuzzy feeling,
It’s vibration that’s in my chest,
oh, the feeling is the best,
when I’m feeling love for the very ones I make upset,

it’s not seasonal,
it’s feasible,
how you can change a person’s heart,
with love that is not optional…
Optical

Optical illusions,
throwing me off,
the scent,
you don’t know I’ve been sent to love you…
love you

But you know one things’ true,
that’s whenever your down in the dark,
I am around.
Don’t play around it’s real,
trying and dying,
and living and dying
and making excuses
for being abusive,
and being intrusive,
and calling me stupid
and lighting my fuses,
I’m starting to lose it
I don’t want to lose it,
but it’s getting harder, and harder, and harder,
to live by my standards,
I’m bout to go stupid…
 

I’m bout to go stupid
I see you have bruises,
and I know your heart
will get harder, and harder,
when it soaks, and soaks, and soaks, and soaks
in your brewing anger
 

A land of danger,
Full of strangers,
don’t get me wrong,
don’t get me wrong,
but I am right
and you are wrong,
forget about all the throngs,
persistent ego that is strong,
I wish you could leave it alone,
but wishing does nothing,
it’s blessings that come,
let’s get it done,
I’m praying to the son,
rather than talk,
then on my walk,
do many wrongs,
that’s not dangerous,
it’s sinful us,
but what I don’t get is how many times,
I have to forget, I’m wandering about regret,
but Jesus is here, and Jesus is here,
so what am I doing,
throwing a fit?

I’m sick of this,
I wish, I could get rid of it,
but wishing is useless,
when your endurance is based on Jesus,
and nothing less
Jesus please help me,
medicine…
Medicine,
medicine,

My dumb decisions,
aren’t going to get me,
I’m looking to heaven,

Re-flect-ions

Jay