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i want to tell my son his father is dead
i know it isn't right
but i cant take him crying for him at night
he doesn't call
he doesn't see him
he damn sure doesn't send any money
so why does my son feel the need to shed tears for someone who doesn't care
he understands a little bit and that's not enough
i want him to understand to full capacity so he can stop asking for this man that isn't here
i know it isn't fair
these are my true feelings
i cant bare to look into my son's eyes and he's asking for something i cant provide
i tried hard as hell to stay
things just didn't work in our favor and i live with the decision to leave every single day
while his dad freely gave up his responsibility
not taking a second thought because if he did he would be here and not wherever he is while his child is crying his eyes out for a person who doesnt care to be present in his life
all i can do is be the best mother i can be
my son will see who his father really is
eventually
