In the past

So much stuff i been through it should've been on the news or in a book
Hanging out with the wrong crew 
Doing things I thought was cool having stuff slip my mind 
I didn't know what to do
Trying to gather back the thoughts was hard
I felt like my life was falling apart just pacing back and forth asking myself " where is the start?"
Found out that answer years down the line
After I was way out my prime the truth about my dad was so unbearable
I couldn't think straight
In my mind I needed a break
So I sat back and let my ideas drift
At that time all I wanted was a smoke and a drink
Knowing now that wasn't a good decision to make
Anger hurt is how I felt
Be a dream don't be real
Thank you God for letting me change my fate
"The Past" is a distant memory it has faded away 
I'm just letting God guide me in the direction I should walk in
I hope feeling like that is the end