Pride

CATEGORY

just different

Your pride is my enemy ....and your bestfriend . you carry it as if it is this shield that you have comfort in . with your pride you glow but the light I see upon you burns a hole in my heart , opening me up with tears and regret that we ever said "hello" to eachother . As I contimplate about how wrong it is for us to be together , I dwell on the moments we spend together even more and this smile rises upon my face , But then I stare at the decrepit sheets on the bed that I don't belong in .  I love you with question and something tells me "this isn't right." I ponder if you are here to last with me forever , or are you here to investigate into my life story , and then leave with all the intentions of making my heart bleed pain and no second thoughts about calling me after . I wear the makeup on a night out , but my unhappiness shines right through it . the pain from my heels is more bareable than the way you constantly misuse my love . I hear the repeated saying " he's no good" my heart knows that you bring me no good company , and even though I know in my heart you are not who I am designed to be with , I run into your arms as if you're heaven made , or my knight in shining armor . My ambitions and goals in life scream forcefully in my head as I am out having a good time with my friend girls because you were too busy to come out with me . The thoughts in my head are louder than the music In my ears . I'm filled up with alcohol and I'm feeling myself so I let go . I think about you , but not as much . I feel as if this night , Is my vacation away from you . We are potrayed as the beautiful couple to others , but in honest reality we are the worst mistake that ever collided with eachother  and it's a horrific picture . I have to get out of this relationship .. well this mental institution . I wake up the next morning and a wake up calls me to my natural senses I was born with . I pack up my things and there you are , standing . Asking me where do I think i'm going . I Smile and say "To find myself again" then , I walk out the door , and that was the end of us .