HOOKED

If I don't do dope

then I eat like a hog,

in between I beg or steal

just like an old hound dog.

When can I kick and lick

these frustrating habits,

even with females

we love like rabbits.

It is, I know

a dead dead end,

yet still I try to cope

without a real friend.

It's not funny how life seems

like a damn see-saw,

up and down up and down

I have no respect for the law.

There are many things I can do

eat less, don't do drugs, or invest in a truck,

but I keep on running with satan

trying to stay faithful but don't give a yuck.

I tried giving God another try

by going back to church,

though I soon ran back to satan

and wallowed again in his dirt.

I'm a cautious human being

and really very smart,

but stuffing food and smoking dope

is blowing up my heart.

I have been getting counseled

and my family's praying for me,

God is forever giving grace

but I still don't see.

This to me is not a joke

this has gotta stop,

my brain cells are dying slow

and my hearts about to pop.

Praying hard dissin' satan

doesn't seem to work,

I guess I'll be an idiot

I guess I'll remain a jerk.

This life is no game to me

even when I think I'm having fun,

on days when it's real hot

I don't feel the sun.

Things will get better for me, 

when I don't lie and steal, 

and when I put true faith in God

believing he is real.

           -BlakMista