BAD LUCK FOR NO REASON

No such thing as good luck, if it is I've never seen it. I think bad luck attached itself to me for no reason. I mean like literally for NO reason. When my mom was 4 months pregnant with me my dad died, when I was 6 months old my mom passed away on me. Coming up I had none of the ones that I really really needed. Mom, Dad, Grandmothers, and grandfathers were all gone and if it wasnt for my family I would be all alone. I could never grasp it all so I somewhat questioned God like "why did I have grow up without my mother you know that aint right, could I have at least had the chance to hug her real tight, could you have at least let me hear from her that everything would be alright. I mean come I couldnt even tell you what she smelled like and to be completely honest I cant really even tell you what she looked like. Who eyes do I have, who do I look like dont show me no picture cuz it just dont feel right. Cmon God I am talking to you but i am hearing nothing back, like seriously this is a heavy load did you really think that I could carry all of that? Allll of this bad luck for no reason!