Chips & Dip

it's hard to fit in to what you don't understand and it's hard to pretend, you comprehend smile and nod, feeling awkward and odd thinking of excuses, plans and escapes hoping no one looks your way, you squirm around in your seat and repeat, have to go something won't let you rise, don't want all eyes on you, you have to make a break for it feeling claustrophobic, hoping you don' t faint, try to breathe but, can't in the mist of a panic attack and you still have to go, hoping no one knows, take a deep breath, send one up, for help made it in time before you went on yourself sweating bullets, now the toilet won't flush no matter how many times you pulled it thinking about jumping out the window people knocking at the door, oh no they got to got too, what you gonna do