When life leaves you. face down in the dirt. where do you go from there?
when life gives you those little task you know you can't over come. what do you do form there?
How about this little question
When life gives you that one person who it all comes down to, what do you do then?
Well I sit here and write this, with glances over at the man I love. I sit here and watch him lay on the bed at 9:03p.m. with his big wire-less headphones on listening to music to describe him. and I wonder what song is playing. And I continue to wonder what he is thinking and does he stare at me while I'm not looking at him. I know one day he will probably read this. maybe tonight if he finds it.
He asked me a question earlier. why do I always run back to him even though he hurts me. I ansered with "because I love you" I guess he didn't believe me cause he told that the love was no more between us That there was no more love but the friend love he wants us to have. well, I'll say this. I can't just turn my emotions off or my love and put it in a little box with a blue bow and stick it in my closet. No matter how much you want that, I just can't do it.
You don't know how much I lay there at night thinking of you. SHOOT, I do that all day. I worry kid. I really do worry about you. I guess I have and always will. Life gave me one of those little scars. It was you. And through that little scar has become a gash that has had a band-aid many times. but also formed into a scar that I try to cover up with simple things like a smlie, or a hug, or covering you up with a cover like I just did. I realized something. I like writting about things thats going on right now at this exact minute. I guess I will continue to write to this little...well soon to be big writting you could say.
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