instead

my words are getting mixed up 

i had what i was going to write in my head and now that i have picked up the pen 

im confused 

i try to unscramble my words and they're still not making sense

how could this happen 

i had my lines perfectly rehearsed and now when its time to perform im stuck 

wtf

i keep pushing forward 

writing mumbo jumbo 

trying to decode my own thought process 

if this was a test i'd be failing

miserably 

how can this be 

my words were perfectly versed in my head 

now that i've picked up the pen 

it wasnt clear to me on what i should be writing 

i wrote this poem instead 

i guess 

i'll keep trying