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I Resolve
Concerning the labyrinth of my life
Before acting and making decisions I will think twice
I will not continue running blindly on the wayward paths
Only to be at a dead end reliving the regrets of the past
I resolve to stay present in the here and now
Acknowledging my Higher Power in all things some way/somehow
Being comfortable and accepting of the way things turn out
Trusting the plan that’s in motion which only God knows about
I resolve to accept at times that people are just too busy
To share a kind word or have patience to listen
I will not accept the truths of others as my own
Not dwell on loneliness but be comfortable with being alone
Depression will have its place but not stand toe to toe with grace
In periods of silence and tearing I’ll seek His voice… His face
Resolving to not be self-absorbing but release my own delusions
Yet being cognizant that God does not show Himself in all humans
I resolve to feel what I feel and to be a better person than the day before
Even when it seems depression continues to pierce my soul
I can’t explain why my moods will suddenly change
Especially when interacting with those who still think I’m the same
Being described as for one whom enough will never be enough… one who will not settle
And I ask how and why would I be different when I’m only striving to be better
When conversing feelings of unrest rears its head
All because of fallacies found in the words being said
I’ll allow my own paranoia to keep me safe
I resolve to remain a child of God trusting that He knows my hearts’ way
My here and now may not be my permanent state
Meanwhile I resolve to show love even amidst the hate
alw 2017
