Showing Up

I feel like you want me
all I want to be is lonely
had a lot of relationships
 in my life
stabbed repeatedly
never seen the knife
had to forget about love
 to save my life
feels like I've been
on drugs all my life
so sick of being hated
I have no strength
to debate it
being single it ain't
too bad
thinking back over
all the love I've had
motivated to keep
on moving
 I'm the star of my movie
 why would I commit suicide
walking down the same road
falling in the same holes
I'm just saying
I know how it goes