To the struggle

Been long time

Havent felt it in a long time 

Being in love

When i do it's usually for someone i know i can love, like they need to be

But no where near me( states away, in broken pieces like clouds with rays trying to peak  into me)

In my head its like loving you might change my life

Enough to move or even make you my wife

But your more afraid of feeling what i feel (this (wait) uppon my heart really a big deal)

From being overly cautious or deeply scarred ( stand still )

So a love sits undone ( like school assignments with the ink on run)

I only get glimpses of it every now in then

Sparks start flying( like the kush in my hand)

I dont get to happy cause i know its gone end

Disappointing to see it all in one woman once again

To be held at a distance

Cause that distance was her friend

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To the struggle

Always strive to be a man of substance in depth. Stay true to who your heart is. Everyday will be a struggle not just everyday but withen yourself. The war never ends so fight long in hard find. Find your peace in hold on. Never losing the memories of who you are.

love is wicked

When i first saw you,  I saw how you would fight for us, I felt Ud always have my back, I saw someone id held life times ago in another life

But something was missing,  I pressed on loving you with it all,Lost in translation,The love we had, Subtracted by what was missing In what we wer seeking we split loving eachother to piece, Always looking over our shoulders To make sure the other was okay

To my suprise, just walking by,She caught my eye,  Her eyes and smile demanding your attention, Her gracefull walk making me nervous, Her beauty something they all wanted But she chose me

The talk queen could keep up with me, Slowly grown inside of me I started to feel a love that once walked away from my touch,I worked up the nerve to ask her to be mine, Same day god took her from this life, In ill never forget the look in your mamas eyes,She told me i have to move on in love again

So i met another, She brought me life Hearing ...

my fight inside

Dominant on one side

He new what he was doing

They speak of balance

But i walk with a limp

I have happy moments

In moments of rage

Momemts of lust

Moments of love  

But on this day it went black I clicked out I neva thought

My angel

Tryna save the world even at the death of him

He faught

He felt love for so long

He witnessed a cruel act of injustice

In forgot about how to love

In that very moment he gave up hope

Shackled to his prison

He regret giving up hope

His wings wer stripped

Perfectly imperfect

He couldnt break free

The two he wanted to save the most

He failed It weighed heavy on his heart

His heart bled him dry from caring for everyone

He forgot himself

But he never stopped loving them

Raining in his prison

Losing hope

Who he ...

lonely nights

Closing my eyes 

Feeling the engery of the dime light at the end

Stuggling withen this darkness More comforting then my friends ever been

Battling my other side my primal instincts tail down not demesticated by any

Wild

I look up at they sky to get lost within my eyes

See all the beauty that keeps my soul from dien out

A dime light full of hunger To feed whats withen

The moon and my stars have never left my side Day and night Listening closely watching over me

Till i find the moon and the stars in her  

Only will i surrender

When you find her  you will see the trustest reflection of you in her eyes

Pure

Walls falling as if it rained

I always said never trust a womens eyes

Peircing of your soul is irreversable

Odd thing is surrendering isnt your choice

Nor can it be controlled

Surrender your love

 Surrender your love I was thinking to myself thinking of you, from time to time I see you, visions of a perfect day, feels just right when the wind blows on a hot sunny day, In my current situation  resisting reality on my plate, ignoring those images till they fade away, it's a inner war between the love that I want, in the love that's in my face,  I'm not sure what keeps me round yo way tho, stopped painting pictures to separate my heart from seeing it that way, pain binding me, binding me like shackles thrown over board tied to my feet, my feet, this feeling has me drowning at sea,fighting the urge to fall asleep these cuts run that deep, felt like I new you, in so deep, when you got hurt I would bleed, saw genuine happeness, now I'm talking to god on my knees, wishing he could reach out in heal me, I still feel a black hole of absence I cover it up with passion, my light is in a better day, writing this realizing, it's hard for people that have been threw so m...

(Two) my sisters

 All I want is you. individually, you (two) . I just wanna be there, you are what iv never had, so I want to do this right, even if my dad was outa bounds during his first glacé, I believe things would be different if he was given that chance but until he can I will be your brother/protecter/ ya right hand man, you can look me in my face in tell I won't harm a hair on your head, I just wanna be older brother who was never given that chance, I'm still looking for you, till this day every bone in my body aches for that day, I herd you (two) are twins the first on my side, I'll love you (two) for as long as I am alive, everyday I try to keep it together knowing the search is alive frustrating tears I cry tho everything's against me, I just wanna look in y'all eyes, tide by love separated by birth tho you two went together my heart left first, one day you will find all that I have for u, I'll alway keep looking till I find you (two)

In another life

 In another life, I loved this girl, she is now she was my life, in grade school her smile gave me butterflies, her eyes  pierced my soul, first time I felt love in my heart,                                 In another life, you wouldn't be the one I learned a lesson from but learned lessons with, ready to walk you down that  ile, tho young my dreams couldn't steer me wrong , loving you didn't feel wrong never rocked a sad face or a sad song,                       One day in an other life you did me wrong,  I never even got to ask you will you marry me, but I guess it was a reason.                                                  In another life, I tortured myself my heart in to not believing, feeling lost...

They say it don't cost nothin

They say it don't cost nothing, this four letter word can cost you everything, that one stereo typical guy, who feeds you lies, looks you dead in yo eye soothing you with his lies feeding your hearts hope, looking upon that star praying it will come true, forgive him outa love your his punching bag boo, faithful in kind hearted you love him threw mistake after mistake, on his knees pleading for u not to leave you say I forgive u, putting it in your heart one last time as he tears threw your body with that one last lie shattering whats left of your hope in him,that last lie .. Changed yo life. Or loves dreams of that night in shining armed never coming true, praying for her heart I know its vary bruised, left her bitter, cold, on guard, scared, untrusting, unable to feel her heart. They say it don't cost nothing but you can lose everything.

I was rong

  Flew 3500 miles away to what I thought was true, it's all good tho now its threw, wont she d no tears I faced my fears in still on top, u ain't running this race with me so ima revers this track in come out on top, cut my Ty's in climbing this rock, I was willing to be wrong to find out what was right. Comen out that water got me feeling right, I can feel my heart beat when I close my eyes, opposed to that hole in my chest I so often felt, that silence of feelin, numbness of your real ness but I ain't trippin. I'm glad I got to see you how it ended was true, when I found out I thought what should I do but I realized I did all I could do. All smiles on my face no regrets, I learned my less in will...