Never Filled

It's said that one must make room for those things desired
On the flip side,
For as long as I can remember
From When the void first began to manifest itself in my emotions, my demeanor, my personality, my decisions
was when I began to reduce my dreams, reduce my vision, limit my thinking, dim my light, deny myself of evolving into my true greatness,   
I believed that if I reduced my self enough, if I made myself small enough, That I was allowing room for that void to be filled with that special type of love ordained to be given by a father  
I was making room for THAT type of love to be given by a lover..... and always being left unfulfilled because the void was never filled