Letting Go

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first love

Goodmorning beautiful, Smiling to keep from crying while I write this. Focusing on the happy memories rather than the negative possibilities. I see that we aren't where we used to be, But thankfully, The void left from outside forces pulling us apart, Hasn't managed to create hate within my heart. So even though I felt you pull further away today, I still love you.... You may say I pulled back first so how can this be, My reply is that I can't help but recognize the things you refuse to see. Better without me, Better with no we, How can I want us, Knowing we can't be? At least we shouldn't be Or else I wouldn't be pulling my hair out speaking metaphorically. But just as my bald head shines in the light, I watch your smile shine bright, As you, your family, and friends become more and more tight. Deep down I know that's what you want and need. So In my absence you get closer to them and further away from me, And I just want you to be happy as can be. Even if it requires me to sacrifice we, Or us, It's tough, To be grammatically correct when my heart is trying to punch out the side of my neck, I won't open my mouth and let it expose the words I hide inside. I'd rather lock it away and let things ride. Silently looking in your eyes like the first time all over again. Taking things back to how they started with a heart full of emotion, my notebook, and my pen....