Survival

Survival 

I will not be crippled by pain, selfishness, pride, ignorance and hurt 

No longer will I listen to the negativity that gives birth to discomfort 

I'll not deny feelings of depression or actual periods  of being depressed 

Sometimes brought on by dwelling on a past

Cognizant I will realize I have no control over some things

As I  learn better ways of policing my feelings 

And if I'm led to a world of loneliness filled with a sense of paranoia 

I'll consider it to be an opportunity to dissect unwarranted drama

When on the rollercoaster of emotions

I'll try to resolve each one by one

Determining the whys if able

So that I'm not left in battle and being blameful

Pity will no longer have a stronghold over me

Instead I'll verbalize how I'd like for things to be

Some will think that's being selfish 

Instead it's self-care in order to alleviate internal anguish 

I will not allow my mind to take me on a journey 

That leads to misery and strife not intended for me

Instead I'll grow stronger in faith

Realizing sometimes struggling is what it may take

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