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Feeling as if my world has turned upside down
inside out
in a matter of 48 hrs
unable to sleep
not knowing whether to run
or follow these "words to live by"
Part of me wants to run
afraid of what is left to be said
afraid of the unknown
Only to realize...
half of it, I already know
the other half
wishes
it could only rewind time
Scared
feelings of loneliness and confused
my heart, torn in two
Always thought NO ONE could come between us
my "Husband", my lover, my best friend, my confidant
you were a major part of me
trusting you with my heart like no other
no man given the ability to conquer and ascertain my heart as a whole...
until I met you
Only to find myself in extreme pain
a wound penetrating deep within my veins
through the root of my heart
through the core of my soul
Roller coaster of emotions
wanting to give the benefit of the doubt
then I realize what Im really doing
is disguising it to relieve some of my pain
wondering....
is there really, much left to gain?
Finding myself in tears,
reminiscing of recent days
