In the moment

Just the other day you said you wouldn't think twice if you left....That my feeling towards you wouldn't matter I had to digest...Those words made tears stream out my face telling me the truth...Why do I stay in this relationship with this pain I never endured as a youth...You said that as if you were ready to leave....Set out on a new adventure to departure while I am left behind to grieve...If you'd asked me if I am happy, I would probably lie and say yes. But only in my car rides alone at night I scream and cry in distress...Come home like nothing is wrong, while in my head I am playing our sad song....The one where I dance alone and my heart has become bloodstone.