I Don't Quite Understand

The Fight

 Just when i thought that i had a chance, i realized that this was just a silly dance.
Stuck in the middle if a love fest, causing me to feel lifeless because i always dream of a fairy tale to be, instead of being real and facing reality. that Happiness really doesn't exist for a girl like me, so again I'm kicked tossed and shoved back to being free, wondering if this life I'm living is still worthy, as if freedom didn't have enough of a burden to carry alone... Now I'm the one dismissed sent back to what y'all call home. And they say not to get ya hopes up, cuz if you do you'll be the sitting duck constantly getting ***ed. But yet I'm here until the end cuz ain't nothing coming between me and my best friend, I'm fighting through and holding back, the unimaginable feeling of a heart being under attack, by the stormy tears that surface the rivers deepest fears, forever knowing what exactly my heart bares...

lovers and friends

 Trying not to get so caught up in this emotional twist,
best friends now, lovers in the mist.
Starting with friendly hugs, ending with a lustful kiss,
Something to have me remember when it's you most that i miss.
With my mind racing, and my feet pacing
Back and forth to be ya tasting.
But as you always say
We gonna let the pieces fall where they lay
Bae im not leaving you I'm ***in with chu the long way.
with me feeling like i disappeared
Baby I'm smiling beyond ear to ear.
Yes i know where stand,
but my heart is already in your hand,
For you to hold tight, keep safe and protected,
No doubt you are my bestest friend, lovers im neglectin
the thought of you crossing that feel good intersection
See here we go again with this love and affection
Back to the sexin, love and aggression
Flip it over lets have another session,
Open ya eyes and you'll ...

i wouldnt hurt you

I'd never hurt you in any way shape or form
Because at the end of the day you are the one helping me through my storm
My trials and tribulations disappear with you on my mind
But now I'm losing you in this short period of time
And because I made a honest mistake,
Am I no longer yours to take??
Well open your eyes
Because I'm not about the lies.
I'm not just gonna give up on what I think we have together
I'm a real chick and I'm trynna tell you I want you to be mine forever
You are my fairy tale come true
And now I can't stop wondering if I really lost you.
I'm not a lier baby
I make a few mistakes maybe
But I promise with my whole heart it wasn't suppose to be as it seemed
Understand I wasn't myself, I was in a deep misunderstood dream.

I Don't Quite Understand

I’m stuck in this dilemma and don’t know what to do.
Do I turn left or right or should I just choose you.
What is it about me that you don’t like?
Please won’t you tell me so I can make it right?
I don’t quite understand what’s so different about me and you
that you can’t determine whether or not I can be your boo.
You’re making my life more difficult than it was,
Man I wish I would’ve never fell in love

To My SLJ

I’m to the point where my feelings are hurt, crushed and destroyed beyond the point of no return.

After all these years of struggling day after day and having each other’s back through the nights that we both shed tears

Look at us now, feels like we were torn apart from each other and you left me with a huge burn

A burn in my heart that can never be healed, a burn that scorned my hands not allowing me to feel nothing but the fear

Fear of allowing another to become so close to my heart that I would kill, that I would die, that my tears for him I will cry.

Looking into the future seeing us together like the way we used to be, made my visions and dreams seem so clear.

But now clear is the last thing that I see. I see a stormy cloud, I hear his voice crying aloud, I witness all his fears residing in the sky, praying and asking GOD why

Why did he sep...