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Had numerous women on speed dial
A few long relationships
None that left me with a smile
Not to say they were all at fault
I'm woman enough
To admit my wrongs
Now when I hear certain songs
It takes me back
I can smell the perfume she used
Her shampoo too
It hits me like a ton of bricks
The way crash dummies are fixed
To deal with crisis in an instant
It wasn't all tragic
Let me keep it real
My relationships lacked sex appeal
I was more concerned with what mattered
Stimulating conversation-
Someone to challenge
Getting high off the experience
Along the way
I learned a lot about who I am
I decided then and there
There's no way I'm settling
No wonder they left
There was nothing else I was willing to give
They wanted every second of my attention
Then one day
So unexpectedly
Our paths crossed like it was meant to be
If they ask
I don't believe in destiny
I write the chapters of my book
Authentically
Never left it up to chance
Every move strategic
I surpassed the impossible
I could achieve it
Higher vibrations
From the Universe
Proved intrusive
This hard exterior collapsed
At the first grasp of our hands
That initial kiss
Filled with honesty and tenderness
I knew I could rely on my intuition
My heart of hearts with all its scars
Shattered into a million parts
If they ask
I'm not here to worship
Let me simply bask in your delight
Admire your sunshine
Take you in blunders
With your love
I'd never suffer from hunger
If they ask
You said I love you first
(You actually did)
I never wanted kids
Marriage was just
A friendly disguise
One that romanticized
Minimized freedom
If they ask
The world turned me blind
Real love is far too kind
I read it in a book
One time
If they ask
You're the definition of love
In real life.
Written By: Desir'ee Chavez
