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I wonder if he knows

What he’s doing to me

When he’s doing nothing. 

He couldn’t possibly be ready

To be a husband. 

But,

He’s got me 

Wishing and hoping;

Shopping for wedding gowns 

Out in the open. 

Something tells me

That I’ll never close the deal

But,

I market myself still. 

I just want him 

To see the bigger picture. 

I want him to enjoy my company

Even when 

There is no weed or liquor. 

Drunk off his smile. 

High off his potential. 

I have an addiction 

That my heart must keep confidential. 

No way I could ever be so bold

As to light candles 

And spill the tea. 

He’s yet to reel in himself. 

I could never expect him

To have the strength 

To handle me. 

So,

I look to the moon 

Just to keep from focusing on the stars. 

He will forever be close to my heart

But,

I must love him 

From afar. 

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