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I never thought change would turn my angels into drunken bastards the devil wouldn't even claim
How the ghetto left my soul behind to adapt to a world that was always cruel to the tone of my skin
How others embrace each new year with new goals and dreams,
while I only embrace surviving for second until my reality goes back to having to fight 365 days all over again
I never thought change would only happen when violence comes kissing at my pain
for my lord sits with my ancestors watching the riots
as they shed tears and sing hymns for they know change will never bring us true freedom
Or how the world would change their eyes seeing me as dangerous charity case before even seeing me as a human being
I never thought change could murder an innocent soul as it grew only from the dreams change could not touch
How change forced racism to take off it mask as if it was ever truly hidden…
I never saw change as my enemy for some change found comfort in my journey
As a woman I once loved found tenderness in change with me
As she taught me the change in my childhood trauma brings to my mind doesn’t always seduces me with a bottle to drown my scars
I never thought a simple word could redefine all knowledge within any second and with no control on our behalf
I never thought…..but again that is what “change” means
