There I Go

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first love

I know you will never love me

It is written all over your face, your eyes…even the words that resides between the lines that circulate within the inside of your jaws

Yet here you are, there you go

I write these letters as reminders to myself 

Reminders of when I thought and knew something was there 

That at some point a spark was there but was too premature to flare up

How stupid was I to believe that, that caged bird was really trapped

When in actuality it was too afraid to take flight 

I wish that I could make this sh*t up

I wish that our paths were not intertwined with one another

That every time I thought the thought that my heart would just simply deny…deny 

These are the things that I could never say

Words that had no real meaning back then 

Yet undefined feelings that should not have been able to bare fruit took root and developed into something more then what it should have

Thoughts were casted out like lines in the water, with hope as bait

And you would nimble

But you would never bite 

If this isn’t the realest sh*t I would ever write 

Then I cannot wait until my words take flight 

If this is my only shot at facing reality then I hope these words flood your thoughts and heart and send you into a ocean of emotions 

I hope your eyes never ever appear before mine ever again 

That my name will be forgotten within your past and can no longer fertilize these weeds that I have allowed to dim my light 

Those nights of enjoyment are finished with “The End” 

And that entire book is burnt in a fire and the ashes are discarded like trash

I hope the wind deems it too unworthy to catch flight and considered inedible by predators 

I pray that I wake up with amnesia and your name is lost within time 

Decomposes and exits 

And develops into an urban legend that no one remembers 

Here I am, 

And there I go