Lunch

when you asked me to lunch that day I told you I already ate truth is I didn't want to see your face I was trying to erase the experience we shared a feeling difficult to bear I I couldn't I wouldn't dare walk back through that door again you said you wanted to talk to me I wasn't feeling up to listening I already heard enough from you when I'm done I'm done I wish I could have said all this to you on the phone instead of making up an excuse and writing it in a poem "you made me feel alone" I threw myself into my work to hide my emotions I got a promotion I became a workaholic to keep from returning to a empty house to sleep in a lonely bed I couldn't rest my head I blame myself for loving you I blame you for leaving me I blame myself for missing the sign when I play back the time you hid your intentions I closed my eyes walked into it blind trusting in your word all the time you were lying to my face every one knew but me that I'll be sitting at the kitchen table crying in a plate of cold food wasting away feeling like if you came back into my life everything would be alright it was a oversight couldn't see the truth until I let go of you