My Mind

 I have no hope/
With my mind/
I can not cope/
It is like I’m living in a haze/
Or my lifes on dope/
My minds just a maze/
Cuz I can’t see straight/
Better yet/
I can’t see right/
Just left/
On the shelf/
Empty and unwanted/
A hard outer shell is what I portrayed/
Therefore/
I fronted/
Though/
Emotionless/
Is what I truly was/
Cuz I couldn’t deal with the everyday/
With meaningless/
Or/
Meaningful/
I created a fairytale world/
So in my mind I could play/
Like a cartoon/
I would stray/
Just trying to make sense of things/
My mind/
Was the only place true happiness/
Could exist/
Could last/
Could elevate me/
To a place I knew I could never reach/
and after a while
I began to not seek/
As time began to past/
It just seemed so meek/
So impossible/
So unlikely/
So meaningless/
It was just not for me/
Not for the overlooked/
The underestimated/
The underachieved/
The bottom of the ladder/
I put myself in a place no one in their sane mind would prefer to be/
Please mind/
Set me free/