I remain in my mind for thoughts
to combine and make peace with me.
For on the outside I hurt with grief,
and it cuts when my flesh bleeds.
I try to make sense of things but can’t
stay out of the blade’s reach.
Right now they’re all superficial,
but what do I do when it pains deep?
I’m beginning to feel much like that
forbidden river, or worse, that red sea.
What if I cross over to the white light
and God keeps me? But I need me!
—JG

