You vex me with your vortex’s

The watcher

For ten years I’ve witnessed friends turn into enemies strangers turn into kin MADNESSES! Where it all begins.  I’ve witnessed losses & tragedies no-one wish to speak on bonds that break like feelings in a heartbreak I’m just as guilty my silence ain’t never saved anyone but myself I kinda feel like the feeling you get when your surrounded in darkness and eyes are watching 

Where’s home?

When I lost you I lost everything my home my family & even some cl friends words will never be enough to express just how much of a impact you made in my life, I remember all the times when I was homeless & reckless you made sure to let me know that no  matter how hard heaed I was you always had a soft pillow for me to lay on you saved my life so many times especially that one night when I pointed that knife to my heart and you walked through those doors d;couldn’t believe what you were seeing I had to be like 12 at the time from that day on my mission my goal was to obtain a better life for the both of us/ these last four years of have been so harsh for me mama I was living in a storage unit COULD YOU BELIEVE THAT your son the boy you once saved has been living in storage Unit for four years so many nights I cried so… many nights, some nights I  had to sleep outside in the literal rain I don’t blame NO ONE for my situation I never did you rai...

You vex me with your vortex’s

It’s been a long time but I feel as though I’m headed back towards the right direction admittedly I let my light diminish over the years with certain things happening left & right how could it not? I’ve meditate hours days and nights I put my body my mind in excruciating pain I’ve taken steps towards a better future or so I thought. is it fair to say that my purpose eludes me? I don’t necessarily know what it is I want exactly from life or anyone for that matter…

Blank

Sometimes I like to let my mind wonder do other worlds actually exist & if they do exist I wonder if life is as complicated for them as it is for us would thier technological advancement surpass ours what would their sky’s look like what kind of food would they have what would it even taste like & what about other dimensions? Do they exist as well what would it even be like to travel across other dimensions other worlds  when you think about it we’re all on a world surrounded by the vasts of space 

Kuma: signing in prt2

I can’t put into words the destruction & chaos I’ve seen in the last month or so thousands of civilians and innocent people wipe out in almost a blink of an eye buildings destroyed neighborhoods in ruins a whole entire country in shambles begging pleading for a cease fire or someone to put a end to this madness, the fears the screams, the look of absolute despair how can a world full of people watch this genocide how can we as a people be so useless so powerless i can’t wrap my mind around this generations of people gone my heart goes out to those people this isn’t right I fear the worst is yet to come they’re decimating the planet to what end? What goal? I’m not certain but at this rate our distraction is all but inevitable kuma signing out.

Time lasp

It's like waking up to a moment of clarity all the questions you had had been answered. There is no void no loneliness this is the first time in a long time you began to ask yourself what is you want? Not just people 

not just from life but what do you want from god? When was the last time you had a conversation with him? When's the last time you Diverge your secrets your pride your love to him? When was the last time you asked for his forgiveness & meant it?

Kuma signing in

As of late I've been finding myself not wanting to be bothered by anybody i can't speak on my counterpart but I enjoy the days of silence I have so

much to learn so much to absorb if I'm being honest with you my concerns are placed else where for instance for the last week or

so my body has been on auto pilot let me explain whenever my "other" decides that he's too stressed out or needs a break from all the bs going

on around him he retreates to his mind head which is kinda cool in a way because we get to converse face to face and it always hilarious 

As he's telling me what's going on vs actually seeing through his prospective I've taken control a few times and ive come to the 

Conclusion that life in itself is an experience that I myself don't care for I much rather stay in the passenger seat of things I don't know how he does it 

I’m zenkixkuma

I've been living through your eyes for the last seven years, you've let me ride passenger ever since that punk a** n***a gizmo up & vanished without so much as a word in that time frame I've seen you lose the people you held deer I've seen the heartbreak & distraction left in their 

wake shattered thoughts were scattered everywhere clouds darker than the abyss began to form yet the warmth of the sun still surrounded you I watched as you got back on your feet & went straight BEAST MODE! I'm talking thousands of push-ups & thousands of sit-ups you were on your 

ish and mannnn was I excited for you cheering for you those dark clouds of abyss scattered thoughts and memories started to vanish but not soon after they vanished the returned with a vengeance in a blank of an eye we lost our mother and it broke you to your core not long 

after that you lost your both of your best friends your home your family ...

Galaxy x

How many blunts have I smoked?, I wonder just how many thinking back to my first blunt is when it all went down hill I never had to chase the high as far as I was concerned I was getting free smoke from everybody & everybody was glad to see my eyes glimmer & my eye lids slightly closed.

The aroma would always take me to a place I didn't know existed twisted my abnormal thoughts into something soothing & comforting a place where you're always all to move at you own pace I stay facing blunts I'm a pro but that ain't nothing to brag about especially when it's 

the only thing I know I never got high off the substance but rather I got high from what the substance took away in the moment. This place that's called a subconscious is filled so much turmoil, pain, sadness,

And disappointments fallen like an angel from the heavens, fallen low is an understatement I've fallen under the pavement 

Discovered breeze failed state

Just trying to obtain some clarity in this moment of meditation 

disruptions fill the area when I lay my eyes on a seventy three old

lady enjoying life to simply paused to say hi she offered me a fresh 

tomato & some worried thoughts she had to get blood drawn concerned 

that she might had a STD (you read that right) my eyes widen my head

erupted with so many questions and before I could ask she gave a gentle 

chuckle smiled & said she just doesn't feel like getting poked with 

needles today and she doesn't feel like getting blood drawn told me to

have a nice day and simply walked away