Afraid

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life

Scared as hell

To face the people who said I’d fail

As a father

As a husband

As a man

I knew the ship was sinking all along but I was scared to bail

Now my options are looking as grim as choosing: Dead or Jail

And what do I tell my son,

When an explanation is requested?

When he’s laying with a woman he’s not married to

Should he try to commit to something his father could barely do

Baby mama drama, and I carry 2

Damn….I’m petrified, I can barely move

So much is at stake

And I shake in fear

Wishing that we would never have to take it here

Lawyers to write it up so we can make it clear

Litigation to split up everything we created here…

It’s all in fast-forward

It’s moving too damn slowly

I’m hurt…It’s that simple, man, I hate what this became

Only one person in the world I gave something as sacred as my name

And now I’m ashamed

Of what we made of it

The Road that lies ahead is darkness

And I’m very afraid of it

Facing it all alone, without running away from it 

But that does nothing to the fear

Of being judged by a system that measures men who never cared

Who want nothing to do with their children

And then they assume I nothing different

Case no. 1345DE

I'm afraid of what's happening