my bad decisions

Spark this

Do you remember me? Do you remember where we grew up? Do you remember the very first time we met? What about the time we had our first laughs together? Do you remember the stories and worlds you created just by illustrating with your words alone? I wonder just how much you’ve changed do you have a family now or are you still living that bachelors life? I remember our last conversation I remember the last time I saw you can you tell I miss you friend? You who was close to me like brother

Kuma: signing in

I see a lot of frustration in my counterpart face I see his days filled with silence & anger I haven’t seen him like this before and I’m kinda worried because 

his life isn’t balanced I mean how could it be he’s been through so much and he’s constantly going through it as admirable as that is that kind of loneliness and pain ain’t nothing to play with he won’t admit but those losses effected him probably more than he knows he needs love friends& family he’s surrounded by darkness but easily adopts like it’s second nature however I’ll keep pushing him towards his goals I won’t let him give up on himself Kuma signing out

Spirits

You wouldn’t be able too tell just by looking at him but he’s a man surrounded by darkness a choice he’s confidently made time & time again but why? How come he seems like doesn’t mind it in the slightest ? can’t he see how badly it’s affecting him can’t he feel the endless darkness creeping upon him from all cylinders he doesn’t budge nerves of steal this one has why does he stand in such abyss and how is it that his eyes haven’t turned black his will hasn’t broken his strength hasn’t dwindled down to nothing infact it only seems like he’s getting stronger what exactly is going through that head of his is?  he scared. is he worried? what could this mean? Further observations required.

Unityx2

Half the world feels like it's on fire & it seems like the other half couldn't careless we're talking about thousands of people who've sides in the spand of two months damn near. We're watching as people are being 

forcibly removed from their home's generations upon generations erased those kids those babies they never even stood a chance & the aftermath of it all is something that words can't even begin to describe 

and to add more fuel to the fire this is happening in multiple places around the world seems like our voices aren't enough our anger isn't enough our government is supporting & aiding in all of these genocides

giving away billions of dollars doing the very opposite of what the people been asking for literally giving them more guns more ammunition locations the whole nine these countries streets are filled & paved in blood

schools, hospitals completely obliterated. In...

Emotion #5

There's no telling what I crave or what I desire maybe the answer to them both is nothing if I'm being truly honest it's been a while since I've felt any emotions maybe there's been a great disconnect there it doesn't 

bother me too much if anything it's like nostalgia familiarity even. I've felt this way since I was a kid guess the feelings enhanced overtime. Losing you,you you you you you and you & you and so many others loses and 

other things I've never spoken of I guess my internal hell and the place I called paradise is one on the same *solitude* being disconnected from everything and everybody has gotten me out of touch with a lot of emotions 

I find myself in situations where I just don't wanna be be bothered. These people aren't feeling me the irony of it all I just be minding my ugly business and someone beautiful comes along and disrupts the flow 

with bad i...

Who you?

To make a long complicated story short my name is zenkai! I was mentally born in 2k16 during the start of what he now considers the 

worst years of his life i met this man when he was 24k years old he didn't have much of nothing going on in his life at the time in his words 

it was all unnecessary bs at the time he had enrolled himself into college word on the street was he was having a kid on the way and that 

sparked his life drastically he got off his a** and went to work he had two jobs & was officially going to college then things change...

On my knees begging for forgiveness

Peace that surpasses all understanding is something I want more than anything in the world

but how do I achieve so peace? Do I pray? Do I spend the rest of my life in solitude?

do I sober up and maintain a clear mind?

How exactly can I achieve such peace?

What would I need to sacrifice in order to obtain it what exactly can I give you that don't have already?

My vanity

This is my life so why do I dought that?

Could this really be my life live or I'm I just lying to myself again

by all means I should have lost my life on a few occasions but

for whatever I'm still here I don't feel whole though

if anything I'm more empty than ever my mind grows 

silent my heart darkens by the day I may not cause trouble 

but that doesn't mean I never get in trouble 

Vanish

What does it mean to be free? 

what is freedom? 

are we really shackled and bound to this thing called life?

we're taught to respect and cherish the life we have because 

we only get one & too many people get a chance to experience it

the more I think about it the harder it is to comprehend.

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