THE GUILT SLIP

The guilt slips away and I no longer remember the pain only the good things will stay. Sins what I’m in. when your breath touches my neck that’s all I feel. We made love during this storm. Remember? I can feel the beating of the rain falling into what I believed was you.  Your thoughts whispered I want you. Then my brain slipped away. Couldn’t find any words to deny you I brought you in. we both shown skin to each other but that was before love.  I feel it do you? Because you have never been so gentle before.  Unless it was just the rain. Your touch still makes me shake at the thought of you.  What I would do to feel that feeling again. That ill feeling of love pain and guilt all in one but all I could remember was how different you were with me.  Not even the crackle of lightning in the sky made you shriek. Was it me?  You stayed strong and lasted long. No storm held you back from finishing, you lacked nothing.  I swear we made love.  As I come up with all of these different reasons of why it was love nothing reminds me that you are no longer here.  I just know how you felt that night. Was it just that you had a bad day, or did you pity me because I was unloved.  Don’t justify me and what I don’t have. don’t satisfy me.  The louder the sky got the harder you went. At one point it was so rough I screamed. Don’t stare away from me when I look into your eyes, you are not shy. But the second time wasn’t like the love we made during the storm. In fact that was all that was missing, your kisses changed to tiny pecks, and my neck had less marks, and from the start you lacked. I want that good thing back.  Its torcher to do this with no passion and how can you see the top if you don’t feel the bottom. Try sliding down a dry water slide its not a fun ride.