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Muah !!! Matthew thank your for loving me at your capacity.
You comforted my frenzies of worry
Your stature lent me calm and I was able to organize anxiety
What I learned from you has refined my character
I am closer to home within myself
Good Bye Matthew
Muah !!! David thank you for loving me.
I remember being handled so soft and warm. Words still escape me for I will always love you.
We lived a dream and realized creation. Autumn will forever live in our hearts just us too.
Goodbye David
Ajah thank you for loving me!!!
You were every aspect of love.
Lover soft and edgy
Friend honest and forgiving
Brother playful and frustrating
Father nurturing and reprimanding
You said come in to the world I created but was not a part of
Your hands on my skin awakened codes in me that allowed me to remember
You imprinted on me
You are a friend for life
Good bye Ajah
William thank you for loving me
You made me recognize that I was a woman
You made me feel sensual like the animal I was inspired from.
Good bye Will
Ian thank you so much for loving me
You saw me beautiful, loving and creative
You saw the magic in me
Your agreement to accept people as they were invited me to live
Closer to my true self
You were a real friend you didn't just *** me
I knew you cared for me really
You help me assign a reference, a standard, for how I should be loved and care for.
Good bye Ian
Though I walk through this vortex of fog funneled to death I shall fear and hear no evil.
My road is lonely and less traveled
The set is a thick cover of fog that does not allow me too see too far ahead
It doesn't feel dangerous
I can't really call it but there's no one there at the end or beginning of vision
Everyone seems to be from the past
Even before I physically meet them
I seem to have known them prior
So I close my eyes and move toward the void
The black abyss
Back to home
The dark waters of Nun
In all this time I can only hope you all received my love
I feel like I'm going to be going home soon. A faint smile physicals as I rite these words with a distant apprehension for I'm not secure in my premonition
But I came to share and help and learn to know
And it happened I did know some things
Certain smiles mean sadness
Some laughter is really crying
Fast talk is insecurity
And all things insecure is fear of rejection.
And fear of rejection is a false sense of security
But all these things speak back to acceptance
So just do it
Just accept your shy awkward self for who you are not
But mostly
For who you finally are
