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Believe in me
Cause I can't seem to find faith in myself
And as much as I want to be the happy girl that you expect me to be
I can't always be her
And as much as I want everything to stay perfect
I know it won't stay this way
And so as much as I want to depend only on me
I find myself living for your compliments
Living just to hear you say you miss me
Living just for you
I long for a way to escape from the pain
That I feel for no reason
From the inexplicable hurt that haunts me as I go about my day
I long for a release
(But what can a razor do except cause more pain
And form more scars that I would have to face every day?)
You know all of my dreams
And you push me to succeed.
((You have more faith in me than I do in myself))
It seems that there is no obstacle that I can not overcome in your mind
I only wish I could be as strong as you think I am.
Funny,
I started this out with the intent of writing about my love for you
And all I got was morbid little poem
About a fear I didn't realize that I had until just now
The fear of not living up to the expectations that you have for me
Because you make me want to be someone other than me
Someone better
But you don't want anyone better, you say
You love me just the way I am.
(But you are my boyfriend so you have to say that)
There is nothing in the world that I want more
Than to believe that I am perfect
With all my faults.
And maybe
Maybe
If you keep telling me you love me
I will begin to love myself
