Will I Ever Know?

I was seared for so long

My emotions always seem wrong

Kept it all in my head

If i write it down a tear might shead

Dont wanna be weak

After i put it to pen tho im at my peak

Get this stress off my cheast

My whole life is still a mess

Dont know what to do

I think i might love you

Not that real love

But the one thatll make you hold on when times get tough

Why cant life be simple

So stupid people inscure about pimples

If we worry about the small stuff

It makes life jist that more rough

I dont know

I keep wanting to show

But everytime you come around

My brain shuts down

My walls go up

Did i put them high enough

Theyy say if you worth it

You'll put the work in

To break them down i would do anything not to see you frown

My only problem see

If i cant trust if your really there for me