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when I had my child I forgot I existed
my whole existence becam caring for him
I constantly break my back to provide his basic necessitites
my whole life was flipped upside down and time passed me faster than my running toddler
i've heard the saying you cant take care of anyone unless you take care of yourself
i've also preached this to a friend a time or two
im tossing and turning a decision in my head that will gibe me the opportunity to do just that
take care of myself and in return
comfortably take care of the little one who depends on me
i feel as if im being selfish
but than again i'm being selfless because the end result will have tremendous gain
not to mention the accomplishment I will have attached to my name
I have to stay focused so my decision wont be in vain
disappointing myself because I frivolously wasted time once again
im scared to death of all the endless possiblities both postive and negative
i have to take a leap of faith and put the matter in God's hands
He knows what He is doing even if I dont or cant even begin to understand
a human metamorphosis is about to begin
i'm going away to work on me
returning as a beautiful butterfly
emerging to take over the world
bigger and better than ever before
this jorney will be nothing slight of amazing
with some twist and turns along the way
i feel as if im prepared
i am beyond honored to be given this second chance
i cant waste
i am determined to win
