Silence

I never quite understood why the silence numbed my soul                         It wasn't the silence of an empty room                                                         It was more of the silence within                                                                The one that captivated my mind                                                            And, caused me to loose myself from time to time                                                                                                                      The silence never made me weak                                                             It somehow became my home                                                                  In the midst of everything I was whole                                                                                                      You see the silence was never really the problem                                                                                                          It was the silence of those around                                                           The words left unspoken                                                                         The stares I mistook for sincere glares                                                        It was the silence in their eyes                                                                The way it would glisten when it came across something tainted                It was the silence of their demeanor                                                      And, mostly the silence muffled beneath that "hello" or "goodbye"              You see that silence caused my mind to unravel                                      That silence is of a Diabolic dye                                                             Like the way Cain killed Abel                                                                  But, somehow my own silence was tolerable                                                                                                       I became words muffled together                                                           Hoping someone will see the silence within and why it made me whole