A Gripping

Damn these chocies, these voices in my head, only gets worser when I am laying alone in bed,fed these lies and liars I despise, which somehow still gratifies, the nature of this beast, wanting to be at peace,in the pursuit of happiness means I will allways be chasing and happyless,dreams that have become nightmares, who can I tell who in the hell cares, lifestyles close captioned  everyone out for self, self -pity got me feeling like I cant be helped, maybe that is the truth, these ups and downs in life dont know how I make it through, and yet somehow I do, clueless alone and empty, all I want is a life I can give simply,in hell I dwell compelled to do things I dont want to,what can I do when my past life haunts you,