Lesson Learned

I wish I should have saved myself...from you. But then again I'm glad you could shed so much wisdom into my once naive world. Trusting beyond what my eyes could see, I thought I knew better but the joke is on me. I used to cry myself to sleep behind melancholy melodies and sweet soothing sounds. Walking around a empty shell with a smile painted on my face. Questioning what is wrong with me for man to take all this love I had and just crumple it up like trash. The hurt was too hard to bear. The pain was so deep I couldn't find a remedy that would suffice. Until one day I realized I was the lucky one. I came out of that horrid reality with some deep lacerations and scars but I made it. I could contemplate on shoulda, coulda, woulda but what good would that be? I am grateful for the chance to love again. You showed me how valuable I am to myself and how I deserve better. So I put my love and my heart on this pedestal out reach from me. Until I do right by myself, I won't be able to just give it away willingly.It all starts with me