Misery's Guest

My last endeavor I failed miserably, instead of red my heart felt dead and could've blead white literally, I glared in darness, as I closed my eyes to the harshness, in sight of the light of my memory, a stabbing in my eyes as I stumbled about, will I ever ascend to greatness I thought with a doubt, my legs weak from worry, my mothers weariness on my mind, maternal instinct fears of a parent, bad air left a bad taste, am I a waste made apparent, in time, I need to smoke to calm my nerves they done got real bad, relaxation I have no trust, I am tired of planning to fail and failing the plan all in a rush, nothing comes in the blink of an eye no overnight success you must lobby this fact, if it's to good to be true it is a ruse or an act, cleanliness is next to Godliness a rapture made plain, everyone wont weather the storm, there's nothing more I can explain, dont look to space for answers, it will only began to rain, this will only give you more disdain, with arrows of pain, you have no umbrella and it;s pouring, dripping on the roofs and hoods of cars, blinding your vision even more, making it impossible to shoot for the stars, grey in the far sky, clouds forming thunder crashing in an echo while your trying to stay dry, lightening keeping your every move visible your shadow seems like he's an individual, your in the company of misery we all know the saying, nothing can take this pain of mine no matter how much one is praying, war is made with self on a daily basis, me, myself, an I will battle which ever is the victor feel the others lost shadowed, this is not a test, this has never been a game, misery loves company and I feel the same,