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i thought that this time we would finally get things right
putting aside the bs and make our family work
despite the many times we attempted
bullsh!++!ng and half assing our way through
allowing the only thing to change was the date on the calendar
dragging one another for the ride
tossing sh!+ at each other expecting us to be pleased
breaking things off for a while just to do it all over again after a short time
as if nothing happened
i thought we had put the past in the past and finally moved forward this time
but we hadn't
it was just the alcohol talking
when you sobered up you realized what you had done and had to break it off at any cost
ignoring the consequences
we only thought of one
the one looking at back at us in the mirror
to a certain extent we decieve ourselves
because we know what we want
our pride disregards us every time
wanting to be the macho man with no feelings
letting the other one have the choice to walk away and we can't accept that harsh reality
i thought us over many times i can't even begin to keep count
i guess i'll hold onto to the thoughts of us
because we never worked out like how
i thought...
