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I wish I knew what to say and in my mind these ackward pauses are starts and stops leading to no where.
I am no closer to knowing you and left with mental structures that builds a model of you. But I dont really know you.
I am looking for that one word that crosses this bridge, a chasm of not knowing to knowing, of being with you and for you.
I am stranded and still cannot find the right words, something simple I imagine but I am lost, a dark highway with no lane called hope.
Im here reaching for you, or the mental you. Too wrapped up in my own mind to reach you.
Im lost.
